I really really wana give up le... Why everydae i have to cry for my love ones.. Who can tell me why???

Am really very worried, frustrated, upset... wad else can i use to describe my feelings and emotions now? Can't think of other vocabs anymore.. but i just wanna tell myself to heck care abt anything,,,

am i juz being too nosey?? Poking my nose into pple';s affairs? I dun even dare to show my emtions to darling cox he is alry so frustrated with his life and if i show him my frustrations, we will end up quarreling.. thta is what i want to avoid...

Does he really know i feel deep inside at this pt of time.

Since the time he sms me till now, i can't eat, sleep, drink.. damn worried.. How can i not be worried for my bf? If i not worried, would i care? It's bcoz i care so that';s why i tell him i am worried...

I was just afraid that he will be too impulsive and start to raise his hands during confrontation.. I was so worried till my gastric was damn painfull.. I waited and waited and trying to survive my last bar of batt to wait for his sms or phone call but nothing came..

Darling i know u are frustrated, angry.. furious and i just dunno how and what to doo. MAybe there is nothing i need to di or i can do.. I feel very helpless.. heart is crying and there was me tearing in MRT to LRT...

I loittered for manyhours and juz can't stop thinking abt how u are doing. I asked myself so many many questions like, are u ok? did u use violence? I was so scared that i'll left alone in the world without you...

Darling.. I really miss u alot... PLease come back soon!!!

No matter wad, pls hang on there.. PLease don give up... I am struggling alot with you.. I am struggling in pain...